Saturday, June 30, 2007

New Beginnings

Well, I am proud and happy to say that John and I will be moving into our new apartment on August 1st!!!!!

The damage deposit was paid on this past Friday...curtesy of John. I tried to pay half and he told me to pay it later...which was nice of him, very nice indeed.

So, I got to spend a day/night with John. It was awesome...after not seeing each other for two weeks...well, it was long over due time spent together. We went out for supper for Chinese to this place called "Smilies" it was nice...service was good there. Then he took me to show me where he worked...and wanted to show me off to his co-workers. It's a nice casino where he works, people seem down to earth. Then he took me to show me the new apartment...where we would be living. The travelling distance to and from his work when we move into the new place will be like two minutes rather than 15 or more(I'm guessing cause I have no idea)

So, after that we went back to his place and watched "Children of Men"....not what I thought...I dont think I would reccommend that movie to anyone. Then that was it. (What? Do you think I'm going to tell all my secrets?:P)


*So, on another note, I think all the cycling has paid off...I wore my pants the other day that I put in the dryer...usually when you do that...thye kinda shrink a little...well, they were too big. Just a size or so...but still ...the fact that that happened...it was such an awesome feeling!!!

So, John and I both have the 3rd and 4th off together...YAY!!!!! --too bad we couldnt go camping then...but that's okay...there will be time later for that.

you know what....I'm just sooooo happy...really I am. I'm with the most awesomest person that I could imgaine....he treats me unbelievably well.....and he's just ...awesome.

Well, that's it for now...more later.

-out

Wednesday, June 27, 2007

Everythings all at once!

So, I tried writing on myspace, however it wouldnt allow me to do so...I gave up after two days of trying, and opened up this account, hopefully it'll work much much better.

So, for my first blog on this site...I'll talk of how some new thigns are happening in my life.

First and formost, I have a boyfriend...of almost a month (July 1st) we immediately clicked, and we have very similiar goals...both wanting to get married, have kids, move back east...that sorta thing. *Not in any particular order* We've even talked about moving in together...and well, August 1st it'll become a reality for us both. John looked at this one apartment, and now the damage deposit will be put on it on Friday. It'll be a 1 bedroom, which'll be nice. My only question is...and I dont want to think about this, because I'm quite optimistic....but, what if we dont work out...what if something goes wrong??? Will we be able to communicate through it. I think we're two both strong people, and I'm sure theres bound to be arguments and times when we'll both want to throw in the towel...and say "thats it!" <---I really hope this doesn't happen...but life is not covered by rose coloured glasses 24/7/365.

I really hope that John is the one...you know, that person that everyone is searching for ....I really hope that my search has come to an end. He seems like he is. I dont know why though...and I'm trying so hard, I reall am...and maybe it's from my past...getting hurt and all....I'm so afraid that because everything is going so well, that somethings bound to happen. I kick myself everytime for thinking like that...because I know I shouldnt. I'm just scared to loose him, he really means so much to me. I dont want to loose him. I mean, I've been lied to soooo many times, I've had my heart broken even many more times...and it's finally when I like someone and they might actually like me back....it's always crumbled before me. I keep thinking what do I have to offer, what can I give in a relationship...I dont have much of a heart left that isn't broken. However, when John holds me close to him, I know that I'm safe. Make sense or not...it's my thoughts, and it doenst have to make complete sense.

We've been apart for two weeks now...and it's driving us both crazy...so, tomorrow evening, he's picking me up from work...and we're just gonna spend the evening together with each other :o) I'm soooo very happy about that. I'm quite excited about it...can't wait to see him again! Like I said...he honestly means so much to me.

I can't guarentee him when, but one day he will hear those 3 words. I just have to make sure without a single doubt in my mind, that he's for me!

Well, that's enough blabbing....I'll write more later...maybe get back into poetry....it's my favourite.

Becks